Lost at Sea
(Here is another meditation from JoJo. The only ministry she receives from me [if you want to call it that] is that I read her emails as she works through her abuse issues on her own with Jesus. It is her desire to share her experiences with others that they might find hope in knowing that Jesus is with them in their struggles.)
Lost at sea today! I hit the inner spinning storm wall that spins uncontrollably around the eye of the cyclone. I am being hurled head first into hurricane force winds and a debris field of epic proportion. Only Jesus can save me. Jesus, come get me! I am lost at sea, O Lord, I fear my little ship will shipwreck!”
I am more than one person this morning, churning in the rough seas of satanic ritual abuse. I am giving multiple messages out all at the same time. “Come here!” “Stay away!” … back and forth. I fear that I will mess up what God is trying to do; I fear that my multiplicity will be seen. “OH, JESUS! SAVE ME FROM MY SELF!”
I wonder if I am a stable person today. I wonder if I should even expect God to do what He has promised me; to restore my life; to give me a future blessed by Him. He is whispering in my ear, “My child, do not fear! I am doing a new work on your life and it is so amazing. I, your God, am creating in you a new person. The chains of SRA are going to fall off and you will arise victorious in my Name. Don’t be afraid for I am walking on the waves of the expanse of the sea just to grab your hand. I will not let you sink below the churning waters; I will pull you out of the sea to safety in my loving arms.”
A great peace comes over me as I hear a voice in the near distance. Right now fog and mist shroud the fast approaching form I see, I can hear the voice speak to the gale, “Peace! Be still!” the briny seas obey His very command and suddenly the cloudy mists clear and I can see Jesus in front of me holding out His hand to catch me. To keep me from submerging into the murky and dark depths below my feet. I am finally saved and I collapse in His arms from sheer exhaustion. I rest in His presence assured of His intervention and help. All I can say is , “Lord, I trust you, and so I will not be afraid.” I am still and at peace finally. jojo
