Are You Looking for Jesus? Part 7: Glimpses of the Inner World
…and unto them that look for him shall he appear the second time…(KJV)
More from “J” about Jesus forgiving, delivering and healing a part from the devastating effects of sexual sins. It seems obvious, and I know this is most often the case in satanic ritual abuse, these sins were encouraged and even forced upon him. Jesus understands.
Email Subject: Luke, sexual sin, a guitar, and the song of revival, freed this morning.
Background: I had some odd dreams about sexual sin last night. I didn’t think much of it after I awoke this morning. However, as I was spending time playing guitar and worshiping the Lord this morning (I felt He called me to do so and would lead me when it was time to do something else), I felt these dreams were not an accident. The Lord was allowing another part to surface. I gave the timing to him. After playing guitar for a while, He let me know it was time to free this part, and that I would be writing it all out as it happened. Here is my testimony of how the Lord freed my part Luke, starting with the lies he believed in.
Lie: “I have so much sexual sin. I am a whore. I have had so may lovers. The Lord would never love or accept someone like me. My sin is too great. I have lain with so many people. How could I find mercy now? I am a dead man, better left for dead. There will be no light for me and no shining day. For I am a great sinner, and my debt will never be paid.”
Truth: “Hear me and listen oh my child! I speak to you this day. No sin is too great for me to forgive. No person is too far away for me to reach. These lies you’ve believed in for too long. Let them fall to the ground like the worthless lies they are. For I am the Lord your God. I have freed nations, split the earth, and cared for the wild donkey in birth. Nothing is too small or too great for me. This sin you have is not too great. I have come to forgive you this very hour. Rise up and hear me, for I speak. When I speak, mountains can move, worlds can shatter, and the dead can rise again. Do I not have the power to do this thing in you as well? I do. I mean to free you this day. Come.”
Testimony: Luke. My Lord has a certain fire in his eyes this time. I believe he may be a bit angry at how the devil tried to deceive me last night. He is moving in great power and authority. Even so, I know he will treat my part with a depth of love, and I trust him. We are here. Standing at a simple white, unassuming door. I know my part languishes inside. Jesus casts open the door, and we go inside.
My part sits on the floor, his head in his hands. I can tell he has cried many times, but that he sits in more of a depressed state now, believing he will never be free or get better. As we come in, he looks at us numbly, as if he is shielding himself from whatever task he’s about to be required to do. But then something changes in his eyes. We’re not who he normally sees. I can tell he’s wondering what’s going on.
Jesus asks him, “Do you want to be made free?” He’s in shock. No one has ever asked him that before, and certainly not with such love, conviction, power, authority, and a depth of kindness he had never encountered in his life. “Yes,” he replied. Jesus lifted him up, saying, “then I will make you free, my child! I will heal you of your affliction, and you will hurt no more. I will forgive you of your sins, and you will be dirty no more. I will help you break your vows, that you will be bound no longer. I will give you new tools, that you will be an instrument of the devil no longer. I will make you mine, for I love you, and I have chosen you.”
My part was in disbelief, but it didn’t take much to convince him. He had always hated his role and longed to be free from it; he just never thought it was possible. Jesus quickly coached him through how to be saved and what to repent of. I start to get the feeling that the Lord means to free many parts today with the purpose and intentionality he is moving with today. I determine in my heart to be open to his leading, guidance, and timing this morning as he continues to coach Luke through repentance and being saved.
Soon, it’s done. Luke is casting aside his tools with impunity. The Lord gives him new clothes and blesses him with a guitar, for He will use him to play His song of revival inside of me. The darkness will not be able to stand against His coming light. Luke is honored and gladly accepts this wonderful gift and honor. The Lord turns towards the door and easily casts aside the doorkeepers like they were mere specks of dust to be blown off a countertop. And so, he leads us out. He will keep Luke safe as he plays the song that the Lord has given him, and He will lead Luke to go wherever he needs to go when he needs to go. In time, Luke will come to the safe place. But for now, he is safe in the Lord, as he goes about the Lord’s business.