Are You Looking for Jesus? Part 35: Glimpses of the Inner World

…and unto them that look for him shall he appear a second time…Heb 9:28

Again I want to thank “J” for his contributions to our website as Stoner and I work at his overcoming the left side paralysis of his body due to a series of strokes last February. Here is another one of his inspiring testimonies.

Background:

This is one of my earlier testimonies as well, also within the first two weeks. The Lord freed two parts that day. Here, the devil sought to deceive me and make me think I was making this all up. It was so real and persuasive back then, and I’m so glad the Lord helped me, and I kept on going in him!

Testimony:

“In light of these two parts that Jesus saved today, I had something that now makes much more sense to me that happened mid-day, after the first had been saved but a while before the next would be saved.

‘Later in the day: I have felt this doubt creeping up in me. It says that God is not really doing all of it in me. I’m just imagining it. (Or worse, the devil is at work within me.) It says not to believe this is happening in me, encouraging me to despair from changing/getting help, saying it’s impossible. The voice sounds vile, evil, and hateful. I know this voice connects with something deep inside me, and thus it is very persuasive. But, I also know the devil can’t beat Jesus. He can’t stop Jesus’ work in me. But, if he can get me to stop seeking Jesus, that’ll do the trick. That’s his play. Trying to discourage me and disillusion me that I would stop seeking Jesus and his help.

I will not stop. I want Jesus. I want his help. I want his kingdom to some in me. I want to be more like him. I need him. So, NO! I WILL NOT STOP! I run to him to protect me from the consequences. He will save me. This is his day, not yours Satan. His day. In me. EVEN SO COME JESUS!’

I wanted to share this and to glorify God for how he helped me see the lie so quickly, see through it, and to understand the truth. Then, He came and moved in such a clear and powerful way in me later this afternoon, leaving no shadow of a doubt that he is indeed moving and working in me. I can still feel the aftershock spiritually of what he just did in me. It feels like things will never be the same inside because of what he did today.’”