Are You Looking for Jesus? Part 23: Glimpses of the Inner World

…and unto them that look for him shall he appear a second time…Heb 9:28

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Email Subject: T: (1), 3.3.2024, Chapter 1, a dark citadel on a volcanic planet, two rooms of parts saved.

Backstory:

Over the last few weeks, there have been multiple times when the Lord has asked me to open myself up to him and allow him to free parts. Last weekend, he shared that he made a great conquest inside of me and that it was an even greater conquest than when he finished freeing the first planet I was ever on inside of me. I think that was Earth. It’s been a little while since I’ve gone with him to free parts. It amazes me how he can do this on his own and just needs my consent and open heart to allow him to move and work. Some days he asks for it, I verify it’s really him, and he frees parts all day as I go about my day!

Today, I woke up to spend my time with the Lord, and he called me to pray for a long time, telling me each topic I needed to pray about when I needed to. Eventually, the Lord called me to pray for my earthly family, who are all involved with SRA, even though most of them have no idea it even exists. The Lord also spoke to me about my earthly father and helped me understand more about who he really is. The Lord shared he is a very evil man and that he does know what he’s doing and is fully aware of SRA.

I obeyed the Lord and prayed for a long time over them, asking for things as he led. Afterwards, I was feeling really bad inside, and the Lord shared he wanted to free many parts. Apparently, this is a planet of parts that has been greatly tormented by my earthly father over time. I asked the Lord if it needed to be recorded, and he wanted it to be. So, here is my testimony, written while it’s occurring, of the Lord freeing more of my parts.

Testimony: Chapter 1, Little ones freed

I am with Jesus now. We are walking along a volcanic planet. It reminds me of a movie I have seen before. As we walk, I know Jesus protects us from the blistering heat. Suddenly, we arrive at a massive citadel. This place reeks of darkness. Before we go any further, I command the Lord to verify himself to me by his name and his authority he has given me. Jesus speaks to me, and I know it is him. He’s promised we will free many parts today and that it will increase my faith. He beckons for us to go on, and we go inside.

It is so dark in here, and I can tell this place is huge inside. Jesus moves with such power and authority though, I know it won’t be hard for him to free anyone he wants to in here. We go up to a door, and Jesus has us go inside. There’s a little girl in here. She’s sobbing, and I know she’s in a lot of pain. I look to Jesus, and he goes over to her. “Why are you crying, little one?” he gently asks. “My daddy hates me! He is not pleased with me. He has threatened to hurt me, and I don’t understand why. I’m always in so much trouble, and I never understand why. He’s going to hurt me again soon, I know it. But I never understand why, and nothing I ever do is good enough. I just get punished again and again” she spoke as she kept sobbing.

“I understand, my child. Your earthly father has been very cruel to you. You really haven’t done anything wrong by him to deserve his punishments. He is using you. This is why it never seems to make sense, my little one, because it does not. He is controlling you by making you think you are failing him, so he wants you to believe it’s your fault that he is hurting you. This is a lie. It is his fault. He wants to hurt you and to use you. He does not love you, and he does not deserve to be your father anymore. I will be your new father, and I will show you what it means to be loved and cherished. I will not punish or hurt you like your earthly father has. I will treasure you and play with you like you’ve always longed for him to do. I will be truly good to you. Would you like that?” Jesus asked.

“Yes!! I would like that very much!” My part responded. I realized she was very excited. She never knew this could be possible, and she’s longed for this for so many years. “But, how? My earthly father would surely never let me go” she shared. “That part is easy, my child. I will free you myself! Your earthly father has no power over me, and I have the power and authority to free you even now. I mean to do so, and great will be my freedom I give you! You will surely dance, run, and do all that is in your heart to do. I will free you right now, and you can help me free others too if you would like!” Jesus exclaimed.

And, with that, she was hooked. Jesus explained how she would be saved, and she gladly gave everything over to the Lord, holding nothing back. He gave her new clothes that were soft and cozy, and he took away her pain. I can already feel the depth of her peace that she feels now in the Lord. She gladly gives him all her tools and everything she was ever given by my earthly father. She celebrates with the Lord, and we are all very excited. We turn to go, and a dark being stands before us. He says we cannot leave with her. I look over to the Lord and ask him what we should do. “Nothing will stand in my way as I free you, ‘J,’ Nothing. We will cast this being out and keep going!” Jesus explained confidently.

And so, he went up to the being and touched it on its forehead. Suddenly, it started shrieking and flailing around. Jesus waited a little while, and then he called the entity to leave. Then, I saw a part laying on the ground before us. He was curled up on the ground, shuddering in pain. Jesus went over to him and asked if he wanted to be better. He nodded his head, barely able to speak, and Jesus gladly touched him, healing his body. He got up and asked who Jesus was and how he freed him from the evil spirit. Jesus laughed out, his eyes so full of joy and love. He gladly explained who he was, and my part was so surprised and amazed. He had never met someone so powerful and yet so fun and kind.

He absolutely wanted the Lord. He asked him to save him, and Jesus gladly agreed to do so. Jesus explained everything to him, and soon he was saved too! Jesus asked if he wants to free more parts with us, and he definitely wanted to. So, we walked out of the room together, celebrating our freedom. Jesus called us further in the citadel, for there’s much we need to do.

There’s another door marked, “They who are unworthy reside in here. Do with them as you please.” I look to the Lord after reading it, and I can see the sorrow in his eyes. We go in. There are so many parts in here, and they all look so disassociated. A lot of them are very young, and I know they have been through so much.

Jesus cries out, “The door outside says you all are unworthy, but I have made you worthy! You have been hurt all of your life, but I have destined for you to be healed! Not one of you will be left behind, and I will never allow for them to come and hurt you again. You are mine now, for I have claimed you. I have set you aside as my own, for I want you. I will treat you will, and I will never hurt you or torture you as your earthly father has. Does anyone want to be free?”

A little girl comes up to him and tugs gently at his robe, saying, “But, sir, how can we be free? We’ve never been able to leave this room unless he comes and gets us. We would be punished so severely for leaving. How can you take us out?” She was genuinely curious. Jesus smiled at her, and I knew he was very proud of her. He scooped her up and said, “Do you see how I picked you up just now? Even so, that’s how easy it is for me to free you and bring you out of this place! Do you want that?” She cackled and giggled as he spun her around, and she said she would love to go with him, for she can tell he is different. She asks if everyone else can come too, and Jesus says we have plenty of space for all of them!

And so, everyone started waking up from there dissociative slumber and numbness. Part after part ran up to Jesus tugging at his robe and asking him to free them too. He took his time, attending to each and every part and answering every one of their questions. After a time, they were all free, running around, dancing, and playing loudly like normal kids. The little girl was still in Jesus arms though, resting contently. “Alright, who wants to go free more parts like y’all?” Jesus asks them. They all cry out that they would love to, and we turn to leave. There are doorkeepers, but Jesus has us all cry out together, and they leave in a hurry. We come out, and we are a merry crowd now! Jesus calls us further in.

Email Subject: T: (2), 3.3.2024, Chapter 2, Jesus calls us further in.

Chapter 2: Jesus calls us further in

We’re a merry group of parts now. Jesus lets me know it will take a long time for us to go through like this, going one room at a time. He asks me if I’m willing for us to go faster and if I want to see him move in miraculous ways. I agree, and we go on. I am waiting expectantly to see what the Lord has next. He has a mischievous glint in his eye, and I’m sure it will be amazing.

There are so many doors, and I know so many parts are trapped here. Jesus means to plunder the whole place I think. He opens the next door and goes inside, inviting some parts to go with him. He’s still holding a little girl part from the last room as well. They soon come out again, having some new parts joining them in freedom. We keep going, and Jesus opens the next door, and then the next door, and then the next door, I’m overwhelmed at how quickly he’s freeing parts. He keeps going on like this, and soon this whole section is free with doors hanging wide open all over the place. Our party has nearly doubled in size, and there is this uncanny peace over us all. “Are you ready to keep going?” Jesus asks merrily. “Yes!!” we all cry out together.

And so, we continue on. In the next section, Jesus keeps opening doors and inviting parts to come in and help him free parts. More and more parts are being freed, and it’s just amazing. I am standing in wonder as he moves. An evil spirit cries out and tries to harm someone, and Jesus casts it out effortlessly. I can feel his power and authority, and it’s weighty and yet comforting. So many parts are freed, I feel like we have a small army now with Jesus marching at the head.

He calls me to the front of the group with him again and tells me to write this down, “Many will wonder if I am really doing this and if I can really free parts like this. You shall tell them that I surely can. It is no small thing to do, but I am able to do it! I have the power to free who I want to free and make captives those I want to be captives. I am the Lord. There is nothing I cannot do. I have called for many more to be freed even now, like I am freeing ‘J.’ Do not let your disbelief stand in my way. Instead, I encourage you to lay it down before me and let me show you how to believe in me. Give your fears to me as they come up, and I will give you faith, just as I am growing ‘J’s’ faith too. Come to me! For I so badly want you to be free too!”

And so, we keep walking. Jesus puts his hand on my shoulder and comforts me as we walk. He knows how much I’ve been through, and I am so thankful for him and his reassurance. He knows just what I need when I need it.

Then, I ask if we will keep going further in together. The Lord shares he will continue on with my parts, but I am not to keep going on with them. It’s going to get much darker the further in they go, and it would be very triggering for me. He shared it’s his will for me to go and get breakfast and continue on with my day, and they will continue working. I am amazed at how well the Lord takes care of me and watches out for me. He asks if I want to hold the little girl he’s carrying now for a moment before I go, and I gladly say yes. He hands her to me, and it’s surreal holding her. I can feel her peace at being saved and finally able to rest safely. It’s wonderful. I give her a big but gentle hug and hand her back to the Lord. He smiles at me, and I know he loves me so much.